Direction.

I finally feel like I know what I'm supposed to do, and it feels wonderful.

The only thing is..what I'm supposed to do is going to have a lot of ramifications. A lot of them. I mean, I might break someone's heart, have to leave school [or at least the country], and my own heart might break...but I have to do it.
Putting your heart on the line is something that you're never really prepared for. I'm not only doing that, I'm kind of putting it in someone else's hands. That's even scarier.

I'm supposed to go to Oregon. I'm supposed to do this.

Ugh, I wish I wasn't so scared.